Wednesday, January 16, 2008
@ 10:43 PM
Hi I'm back again...this time on a slightly low spirit though...Seems like I finally got gripped by stress and every thoughts that are currently playing with my mind...which is rather heart wrenching when u simply can't let it out..or should i say...dunno hw to let it out....I dunno whether the things I'm getting frustrated about is really my true emotions or issit because of the stress build up cause of the upcoming exams. You know, I really wish to just let it all out on someone and just walk away. But I will be very unwilling to bring my unhappiness out to my friends, knowing that it will affect them too. Sometimes, its very obvious that my mood is lousy and down on that day and I wanna show it out to others, however, once I see them, I will go all high and such...knowing that I'm not suppose to be like this. This kinda sucks a lot cause all of it will start torturing me when I get home or when I'm alone.And sometimes, when they see that I'm so-called in a gd mood, they start cracking those provocative jokes on me and I will get pissed off internally but not let it out..which makes my mood even worse for the day...Don't know why I just feel so damn bloody lonely suddenly, its like I have no true friends to confide into and am keeping everything to myself....being ignored everywhere and left in a corner....ok mayb some of what I have post is not understandable...but I just wanna let it all out cause keeping it all in is not an alternative anymore...Mayb its because of the stress...i hope...Sometimes I wonder and think and then I will tell myself, my life really sucks... 0 comments